A new chapter

My mat leave ended yesterday and I have been going through an emotional rollercoaster since we got back from holidays. Isobel has been especially clingy with me at nap times. I am still trying to wean her from the boob, she just won’t give up the night feed, even if she gets a bottle beforehand. And she has a not so subtle way of letting me know what she wants, with pinches on arms, headbutts to the chest, making her one determined little lady. Of course I give in because I cannot stand to see her so upset and it’s really for comfort than for hunger. Once she latches on, she wraps her whole arm around my boob as if she’s saying “no getting out now mummy”.

I have been settling in Isobel at montessori for the last few days, where I am with her there for a few hours each day. It’s been really difficult to see other babies snatch toys off her, and her getting upset. But I guess she will learn to share and stand up for herself which can only be a good thing.

I started back to work today and I was in our home alone for a while this morning as my husband did dad duty. The silence was deafening. I could hear the clock tick and the kitchen tap drip as I finished breakfast. I wondered how I never noticed these things before and it was at that moment I realised what a blessing Isobel is and how lucky we are to have a healthy beautiful girl.

My first day went great and it was heart warmimg to come home to an excited squeal and smile! Isobel did great too, spending a few hours alone in montessori before her dad collected her. Next week is a proper full day so fingers crossed she will be happy there. The benefits so far have been better lunch nap’s as she is so worn out so long may it continue..

Daddy went overboard with the lunch menu!